Alright, I'm BACK FROM THE 2 WEEKS CONFINEMENT! =S

Damn, I'm a tanned botak now. Wow, that was a hell of a 2 weeks for me. Kinda xiong and talk about the progressive training they've planned...don't wanna know what they've planned for us in the following weeks. Think my platoon is either welfare or my platoon is simple fucked up. Haha. We got the nice sergeants then we always like take it for granted and slack here and there. In the end always kanna pumped or run here and there for punishment. But can really see the fighting spirit in the platoon when the tough gets going. Managed to scrape through the tough parts and bond quite well with one and other. Sadly lah, out of 44 peeps in there, already like 15 got atten B status. In case u didn't know, it's fallin ill. So training with the reamaing small group only loh. Seriously feel that some are really sick and so juz chao geng one loh. Then also got a few wayang kings in my platoon liao. Sian. Haha. Don't care lah, I juz continue my low profile. Btw, damn sian, I kanna the drill commitee liao and so, gotta train for the drill inter-company competition meaning I'll have less admin time and rest time. =S Sadded... Oh ya, lost my 11B in the camp loh on my way back from the cookhouse but luckily my platoon sergeant found it. Really grateful for it coz I don't wanna spend 50 bucks and go to cmpb on my bookout day to make one. Makes me more alert now. Haha. Lesson learnt.

This 2 weeks makes me realise the importance of a mental support. When the going gets tough, I always ask myself, "What the hell am I struggling here for?" I wish I could juz be like the others who juz go see the Medical Officer because of flu, headaches, etc. I know of my platoon mates who seek strength from the gf. For me, I don't know, everytime when I juz feel I couldn't go on, there'll be this person's voice ringing in my mind. Haha. Suprisingly, this person don't even exist in reality at all. But the fact is everytime she's always there telling me not to give up, juz go on a little bit more, endure a bit more gives me that extra strength to push me further. Frankly speaking, I really need to have an aim to all the things I do or I see no point in doing it. Protecting the country is sacred but the fact is that something, or someone in this country I really would give up my life to protect makes me positive in training. Perhaps I'm too over mentally dependent on a person. So be it, an imaginary ideal partner is also not too bad an idea.

Haha...enough for now. Gotta go do my own stuffs already. Maybe tml will write again. =D