Feel like shooting some hoops. I'll wake up early to do so. Ha.

Something HAPPY. =)

Send sms to one of the contest during the Chews programme timeslot and actually won! Yey. Got a 陈奕迅 - 1997-2007 跨世纪国语精选 album. Cool.

Talk about something good to happen soon.

It did. Nothing was gone from my bank when I didn't even know when I lost my ATM/debit card eons ago. Totally ruined my day when I found out today in sch, with no cash at all in my wallet and hoping to draw some money.

I really think I need to let out all those crappy feelings that's building up inside. Drinking, anyone?

What's the common thing about my past relationship and the tuition I'm giving now apart that both of them are call V?

Lots of time and effort invested = some crappy results

I almost flared at my student for her crappy attitude today but I realise that it's not anger that I'm feeling, but juz tonnes of disappointment. Disappointed at her couldn't-be-bothered attitude and mostly disapponted at myself. Disappointed that I've failed as a teacher as a whole.

The whole series of disappointment juz triggers me to think of V.

How angry I felt when I found out she was with someone else but come to realise that I'm juz disappointed in her, and again, mostly disappointed in myself for it must be that I ain't worthy enough, that's why she chose someone else.

Disappointments. Life juz seems to be full of disappointments for me in the recent years. Come to realise that maybe I ain't that proficient at human relations. Feel for all the wrong people. Talk of insensitive craps. No one actually listens to what I have to say.

Feel totally anti-social in uni. Feeling introvert. Actually I really wanna go socialise with the peeps in my fac but somewhat, juz didn't know where to start. Forgot what it's like in the past to be a social animal. All I wanted is to avoid place where I'll meet people that I know and wonder about places where there's not many people. It's juz like where there's less human interaction, less things will possibly go wrong.

I juz need something good in my life to happen. It's time to start appreciating the little things around. The breeze, the warm sunshine, the big Nature I've taken for granted.

Hmmm...haven't been a good studious student lately for the amount of work that I need to do for my finals is miserablely low. Been in that "can't-really-be-bothered' or "man-uni-life-is-much-more-worse-off-than-army-life" feeling. Guess I haven't really been into the social life of university, not interacting much or making too many friends or going out and have fun like what a uni chap should be doing. Didn't really like staying in school for too long.

Drop out of the music school and went for private tutoring instead. School's too exp and didn't really teach me much on the techniques and skills, at least on a basic level the fundementals but juz teaches me how to play songs. At least the teacher I'm under now imparts the licks of playing slick. More useful to know more basics first. Fun, music is kinda easy to pick up. I'm more of a hands on person. Lol.

Had this "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder" talk for the volunteer enrichment thingy. Well, kinda informative and makes me wonder if I'm having this PTSD. Considering that I used to be a sociable person in the past and the not very sociable person now, maybe I'm really exhibiting symptoms. =O Maybe it's juz that I find interacting with people tiring and troublesome at times. And there's sometimes an awakard moment when I (usually) don't have much (or don't know what) to say. Ha. Maybe I should juz learn to be more independent. =/