Mixed Random Thoughts.

Thoughts from all over the shop.

From benji's blog - "To be among the majority, to have groups of friends, to have social circles, juz simply having others' company, we are forced to put on a mask to become someone whom others want. Being ourselves, saying the truth or just being frank is a tedious thing is you wanna keep relationship good."

From bball - "Why is bball a team sport? Coz it's a game that requires a group of people working together with a common goal (winning). Each player is like the foundations of a building coz it juz take one to collapse the whole structure."

From conversations with Jun - "Words without actions will always be words. No one was borned successful, successful with one's own accomplishment. Singapore started from a small fishing village. Confidence can be built up bit by bit. External influences can be distracted from your goals but keep your mind focused and your resolve strong and you'll sail to your destination. Just know that opportunites are always around and some just come by once in a lifetime. Yup, it's only words from me and they're just words. You can uphold the NATO spirit or make a first step."

From my inner voice - "Desperate people never gives up. When you're at the edge of the cliff, cornered, in a bottomless pit, you'll never give up for the only answer is death. When you're desperate, you'll try every possible means to get better, though some may have such a low chance of succeeding but how worse can things get anymore?

There are just so many things that's making me tired. Work to earn money, work to earn more money, etc. Part of growing up is knowing that most of the thing that governs the laws of reality is money. Money makes wonders. Yet, the process of trying to upgrade our materialistic well-being, we're juz downgrading our health.

A special person's Love is such a wonderful thing yet, I've forgotten what it felt like. The Love is like a miracle tool that cast away the thunderclouds and calms the sea, turning everything so peaceful, the guide to serenity among the chaos. I thought I've given up on it but I realise that I've just given up searching. For when she appears before me, then I'll hold on tight. How do I know she's the right one? When she doesn't walk out of my life and allows me to uphold my promise of forever again."

For Money or Passion.

In life, should we pursue our passion and dreams for a living, or go for a job that earns big bucks and gives us finanical freedom?

Went down to this company and was really honoured to be lunching with 1 of their top management. From the way he speaks, the content of his conversation, substance of his speech and that aura of confidence certainly awed me. He really touch on the issues that makes me think hard about my future. For a man who's earning 10k per month at the age of 26, he certainly has the experience.

Life is still a reality, I guess. He offered to train me into an entrepreneur working in the company. REally like this phase he said, "It's Fate that brought us together but it's YOU who'll write YOUR DESTINY". Cool. With the good offers and great opportunities he has proposed, I'm really giving in to the temptation. Maybe, I'll just go down for training a few more times before I decide on letting go of my current job. =S

Wavering Resolve.

Sometimes just wanna comfort or do something to make that someone who meant something to me happy and blissed but...maybe not. It's quite true that matters of the heart are very very complicated and unpredictable and so, why still try when I know nothing will come out of it still? Times like these test my own resolve and see how determined I'm to stick to my beliefs. Guess at a young age now, just study hard, work hard and earn lotsa money. And just hope that someday someone would want to make me feel happy and blissed.

Pretty babes.

Wow, thought that the company cohesion was gonna be a bored but maybe I'm kinda wrong. REally not involved in much of it coz I'm doing my own work and where I play a part is only ushering the people to a room of the "crime scene" that they playing. Lol. Yet, the good thing is that employees from other branches came too and yup, all the pretty young girls too! =P One girl did caught my eye, she tied up her hair into 2 ponytail which I thought looked cute. HAha. Alright, there're other pretty babes around too but just that one I paid special attention to. But as strong follower of the "No Action Talk Only" Party, I didn't even open my mouth to get to know her, less her name. Maybe a wasted opportunity but well, couldn't really be bothered anyway. Rather not get involved into another complicated situation. =)

Workaholic.

Well, when it's time to work, it's time to work. Although I really hate to admit it but inside me lies a workaholic soul. There's just a strong desire to finish the work of the day before I wrap up and go home, even if it means taking work hours to overdrive. And the saying that "There is endless of work" but somewhat, just hate stopping when things are half-way done. Strange that I never felt the same about schoolwork. Haha. Working is good. Good. It makes me focus on the work at hand instead of all the time that I have to let my thought wonder about and start doing funny things. =O

And nothing feels better than going down to the court and shoot some hoops after work. The body's full of energy while the mind's drained for a whole day in the office. Just run around, shoot some jumpers, do some finger rollin' layups and let the perspiration drip of the pores down the skin. The adrenaline rush to just do a windmill layup, or a fadeaway jumper. Feels good.

Tiring Day.

First day was work was...tiring - for my eyes and my mind. Well, practically have to used the points required and my imagination to come up with 3 pieces of drawing that's at least worthy of looking. Taxing. Not used to this kinda free-style drawing and just feel that my style is kinda crap. MY eyes watered like a running tap after staring at the paper for hours while my hand does its work. Basically got off work like a zombie, and a hungry one. Well...4 more months to go. =S Isn't that just comforting.

It's the Songs that sets the mood.

Watched My Date With Vampire 3 again. Well, not actually the whole thing but the later half of it, sorta like picking up from where I stopped during the army dazes when things started getting nasty. Well, all I could say is that what captivates me is simply...the songs. Although I really have not much of an idea what the canto words are, the lyrics and the tune just seems to fall in place and give me that sad and lonely feeling. Agreed that the plots in the show is cliche but still, it's the old idealistic simple idea of love that draws me to watchin this type of drama coz sometimes, I can just connect with parts of the show. And by connecting to them, I can learn more about my own self by how the characters in the show handled their problems, their emotions... Haha...sounds corny.