『One 华健世界巡回演唱会/新加坡』

DATE
7 Feb 2009
Sat, 7.30pm
National Indoor Stadium

Yey, my first (and still) idol is coming back! Missed it in 2007 (coz of the stupid OC) and yea, tot I'm gonna regret not having gone to his concert for once. Alright. Don't think anyone's goning coz people are like "sorry not me era" with me. Whatever. Ha. Going to high on my own. =DDD

Hmmm...visiting ZR's blog and that ass never updates..always see that letter to B which B is...ya. Ha.

How true is that...if I have a chance I think that going back to those OCS days would be great where each day there's really nothing much to worry about but what time we're going to book out during weekend, if we're gonna get gold for the IPPT, how to slack during the 15km run, G-group gathering at my room, doing our stupid pass it down dance moves from Joshua during stand by area, watching each other screaming like a pussy when there are leeches stuck on us, when maggi mee and hot ration pack never tasted so good out in the cold jungle, when the whole platoon cheered for the last 2 guys finally got their gold, when me and ZR should have been roommates instead coz we bitch and emo-ed abt almost anything from officers to training, when I seriously wondered how did I ever manage to mix into ZR and Kenneth's world of atas-ness.

Maybe it's just that during those tough times you got this clown buddy dying with you and the will to overcome it together juz seem stronger. This kinda bond's never gonna be found anywhere else. Sad. Dying out in uni but ha. Seems like I'm the only one really dying out from studies alone. Lol, how loser can that get, no other committments still get so loserly grades.

Somebody save me.

In case you don't get it, it's a wave and a particle. The wave-particle duality...=/ Damn...I'm getting cranky to post this cartoon..

I know I'm taking QM but there's gonna be a HUGE uncertainty in the marks. Zzzz. Lol. For the first time, I felt that there isn't enough time for the Physics paper (when usually I would have too much time to spare coz there's juz so many problems I can't solve). The question looks harmless manageable but yet when I got down to work on it, the intermediate steps are juz... Forgotten to include one chap in my help sheet and DAMN, there's like 3 Qns (out of 9) on it. Totally. Luckily still remembered bits and pieces from the note I read and managed to piece together a rather "convincing-looking" proof. Zzz.

Fuzzy fuzzy... Imagine I have to take another Level 3000 and 4000 QM...goner...

Sitting in front of the com, waiting for my hair to dry before I sleep, the brain still contracting and relaxing aka headache, equations floating around but none seems to make sense, a help sheet waiting to be written for tml's test...

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Ha. Seems like I'm in for SEP this year. No matter how much the heart desires, it's useless when it's chained up and locked away in the past. And the key's lost somewhere. =/ Sux when the brain and the heart are both drained.

Cool... Blogging from my phone. Lol.

Hmmm... Damn. Working through the QM mid term test 2 and realized that it's actually quite manageable and.......simple. Sux. Complicated... Still can't really grasp the concept well coz it's really mathematical (something which I really sux at...) hmmm gotta prepare this super potent help sheet in tml or my marks will be real impotent. Haha.

Dang. A part of me wants it but another part is too afraid to go for it. Don't know... Think about it after exams ba...

Hmmm...studying these few days on juz 1 module and I'm juz like only 3-4 chapters done? Another 4-5 more to go ba. Was trying to figure out the last part of the equation along the way in the term paper. Hmmm...met me term paper partner and juz felt that...ya. Maybe I should have kept my stand of working alone at the start of the sem. Worked through the paper all by myself and ya, it became our work now. If he managed to solve the last equation I would have felt better but ya, so be it. HMmm...loving the feeling of having a splitting headace after mugging for a couple of hours coz that means I'm really using my brain. (weird theory) Understood quite a lot of stuffs while searching for all the sources to do my term paper and studying E&M at the same time. The beauty of learning is when you start to see different concepts starting to link to form a whole picture. Although the finals are really closing, couldn't feel myself panicking or what. Juz reading and working through the stuffs at my own pace. Maybe it's not about squeezing all the things in that given amount of time but thoroughly understanding it and keeping it for life. Or maybe I juz secretly know that I'll still be "owned" by the exam paper no matter how hard I try. Lol.

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Forever love...forever love...我只想用我这一辈子去爱你...

The lack of that "feeling"... Jun did mention juz now - So who am I thinking of when singing this song? Hmmm...good question. No one? There's no one whom I really feel so much for to wanna spend forever with now, or maybe it juz that I'm not certain of the person whom I wanna spend forever with. Searching for that person to touch my heart and haha. Maybe. Maybe...

但可能爱情给我的体会是...

你不在,当我最需要爱...你却不在.. 无尽等待像独白的难挨...你不在,高兴还是悲哀... 你都不在...我受了伤在偷偷好起来...但你不在...

Tagged by: Chupa
a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation.
b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

Great. I must be so damn bored 6.45am @ NTU that I'm actually doing this.

1. The age you’ll be on your next birthday:



Dunk it, baby!

2. A place you’d like to travel to:



Switzerland's the place! Hope I get the application for the summer programme and I'll be going to Switzerland!! =DD

3. Your favourite place:



The one place where I feel at ease at, where my troubles go away for a while.

4. Your favourite food:



Ooooo...love prawns. Love the steam drunken prawns my mum whips up! =D

5. Your favourite pet:



No doubt, it must be the Retriever! Haha, big friendly dog which never fails to amaze me whenever I see one. Small dogs are too noisy.

6. Your favourite colour combination:



Always had a liking for grey. The neutral colour, juz like there's nothing definite in this world. No definite black or white, but everything is in shades of grey.

7. Your favourite piece of clothing:



Anything casual and comfortable.

8. Your favourite TV show:



Don't really watch TV yea, but Smallville is a series that I've watched since season 1. Haha. I like it so juz shut up jun.

9. First name of your significant other:

Errmmm...next time when I have one. =/

10. The town in which you live in:



If you can see the small sign board that says "Choa Chu Kang Village". Haha.

11. Your first job:



The days in Kutsasu....1 month OT and the record breaking 500++ motor cores produced a day (sololy by yours sincerely who operated 4 machines on his own X_X)


12. Your dream job:



Research in Astrophysics. There's still so many wonders out there in space waiting to be explored!

13. A bad habit that you have:



I realised that I could get A LOT MORE work done if I slept less...zzz...

14. Your worst fear:



You get the idea.

15. What you would like to do before you die:



A Nobel Prize for Physics would be great but...I think more realistically...



Juz wanna walk along the beach with that significant other. Haha.

And now, I tag: I'll juz tag a couple of people who's likely to response. Hah. Maybe Seng, Jolin, Su Juen, Zherui, Kenneth. Yea.

Defeat after defeat has made thy soul weary.

Still in physics lab...zzz

Had viva with the prof on Rutherford Scattering. Ha. Felt good coz I managed to answer a few questions he asked which he commented that only a few knew the answer from all that he tested. Boy tt boosted my ego.

Tried studying Quantum Mechanics but seems like the fuzziness got into my head and yea, everything's a blur. Tried doing the Term Paper but I'm still stuck at the first equation, far from the actual disk paradox. At least all my lab reports are done and 1 more viva + presentation to go before wrapping up this module.

Over exerting my small brain capacity each day. Huge headache at the end of the day, rendering me useless practically by the time I reach home at around 7. Sleep is such a wonderful way of rejuvernating the lost brain juice but yet, it's also a luxury that I cannot seem to afford now. Starting 1 month before the finals too seems to be insufficient. =/

Tired. Think I should go for some coffee at westmall to relax.

Supposed to play bball at NUS but ya, the sky's dark and didn't went. Yet it turned out that it's juz a slight drizzle and everything's dry after tt. Went down to the court nearby to shoot a while and managed to play some pickup games. Cool, as usual, played the low post coz my shooting is cui-ed to the max. Getting rebounds and ya. Lovin' it when I juz jump and tip the ball and jump and tip till I got the rebound. Lovin' it when my teammate did a fake 3pt-er and I alley-ed the ball it. Lovin' it when I executed a nice pick and roll. Lovin' it when the whole team's involved to get some nice moves out. Lovin' it when in the midst of the competition there's smiles and laughters. Lovin' it when playing bball is enjoyable.

How long has it been when the court is the place where I seek peace and serenity. I nid to get back the old habit of juz me and my bball. =)

On times when I seriously think I've made a wrong decision...

Wondering if studying Physics was indeed a wrong decision that I sturbornly insisted on being not. Listening to people around me (Physics majors) seriously discussing about changing majors. Spend endless nights trying to understand a miserable chapter and studying for a test which in the end, couldn't even complete even 1 of the 3 questions. End up working alone for the Journal paper coz my partner decided to pang seh me last minute and take the test instead. Staring at endless vector algebras and mathematical equations and not seems to make sense. Realising how small, how lack of knowledge I could be. When my brain doesn't click stuffs together to form a whole picture that others see. When my brain doesn't retain what I've tried to study.

Yet, the curiosity to know more and more about the strange and new things. The satisfaction when I finally solved the first of the many equations in the term paper for almost half a day. When things starts to fall in place when I realise that there's the other given condition. When I realise that there are questions that I've had even the prof couldn't explain why.

I don't know. The ups and downs. Maybe I ain't smart but perhaps my major ain't the easiest one around either. I should juz shut my ears to people who're complaining about their CAP dropping to 4.5 or not getting A+. I'm juz an ordinary kid trying to do something that he likes.