Now I finally know what happens when you're so shag out. Words coming out of your mouth ain't what you're going to say, you starting falling asleep while doing fast march, you mind seems to have blank out and you're juz doing things like a mindless zombie. That's what I felt today totally. And accumulate of 12 click route march followed by SITest which was continued by a 16 click route march with lotsa shit inbetween is really leeching out all the energy that's left of me. Frankly speaking, I'm totally exhausted now. Haha...but having about less than 24hrs on this bookout makes me not wanna waste time sleeping it away. Maybe juz a while off before I collaspe into bed.

No time for myself. Had to learn this dance move and teach my drill com on mon coz of the creative suggestion by my CSM. Haha, he's a good and funny guy. Creative's the word. Took my own initiative to get this dance rite and tell him about it on the next book in so maybe our last minute drill team may stand a chance. Haha. Sometimes really think back and wonder, what the hell am I doing all this shit for when others are having their admin time while I'm sweating like fuck under the hot sun doing drills. Perhaps it's the sense of satisfaction and maybe glory if we managed to get something or I juz feel like wanting to do something for our company. Don't know lah, I juz seems to forget all the shit of this whole meaning thing when my mind is burnt by the sun.

Haha...I like to laugh or juz give a smile to somewhat forget the pain my body in having and let my mind drift off away to another paradise.

Can means can, cannot means cannot, don't talk so much cock. Pain is Temporary, Glory is forever. Impossible is for wussies. Nothing is impossible with the will to fight on.