Juz pleasently surprised at myself at how emotionless I can feel now when I read about the blog other those I used to place importance in my heart. Haha. Today's my cousin's wedding and kinda sets me off thinking, again. =P Juz like OOC (Officer Cadet Course), you have to go through lotsa shit together (in OCS, you go thru with ur brothers; in love, of course with that special person) to have a happy ending to your courtship days (a black bar!!!) which is getting married. I guess army is really a good place to heal all hurt souls coz it juz makes me so tired mentally and physically and the programmes are so packed that I hardly have time to sit down and think. And if there's really time, I'll most probably be falling asleep in bed to rest. Haha. To be a responsible man-to-be (when I'm 21, after NS) and a future officer-to-be, gotta think of the big picture. Don't even think I have energy and time to spare for another person and the time I have now, I rather go out and rot with my friends and relax myself coz having been thru love before, it's so tirring, especially always trying to be the ideal bf that a girl wants. Crap. Perhaps a few cells or neurones in my brain is fried for good. Yea and I mean it's good. =

Oh yea, service term ending soon. After 23 click (and another 4 click back to OCS) route march, I'll be a senior cadet! HAhah. Hope they don't want us to carry platoon organic weapons or I'll really orgas if I'm the GPMG assistant. All the FEELING (sing this word with emotion!) will come. Hhaha. Sorry non-NS folks, maybe you don't really understand what the "toot-to-to-to-tooooooot" I'm talking about. Humm....time really flies. 3 month plus in OCS and about half a year in army liao. Although I really look forward to regainning my pink IC, getting back my freedom, this army life has sort of became my life now. I think I'll have a hard time adjusting back to the civilian life (yea rite) after I ORD. Was thinking of signing on to the army but after that great ambition I had with the gang, maybe I shouldn't waste the precious time I have. A few Physics projects to be completed in my lifetime - theory of condensed light, black hole and inter-dimensional theory and nuclear fusion reactor. Cool. All these to construct a real GUNDAM model as suggested by our beloved CCK. =.= Haha. Although a bit "...", I think that it's good to have a dream coz that'll be something that I can work towards to, especially after when my brain is deteoriating after entering NS. Need some Physics to set the brain juice flowing. =P

The following are the ambitions few to build a workable GUNDAM MODEL =D
Model theory - JH
Mech and electrical engineering - CCK
Purchase of resource - Boon
Artistic outlook of model - Jun
Chemical composition of wpns and reactor - Seng