In agreement to what Jun said, love is something that can't escape from being part of my entries.

In reality, the more obstacles I meet maybe it be getting IPPT gold or passing some tests, the more I fail the more determined I'll get in reaching the target. Failure seems to scotch that pride of mine and no matter how many times I must succeed. In love, it juz completely seems to be the opposite. Perhaps having gone thru countless of failures that I seems to have lost sight of the light at the end of the tunnel. What I'm doing is like walking aimlessly in this complete darkness, trying to find my way out not knowing if I'm juz walking in circles. Also, don't even know since when, being alone doesn't really matter much to me anymore. Somewhat accepted the fact that even very close friends, one day they'll find their soulmates and couldn't be always hanging out with me all the time. Doesn't really matter if I ever find a soulmate coz that person I've formulated in my mind will never appear in the real life. Somehow accepting that makes me less depress than always trying to search for that someone. Haha. Perhaps I don't have to try to guess what she's thinking, devote all my energy trying to please her, divert all my attention and time to her. Isn't one person more carefree than having to constantly worry about another? HAha. If I can choose, I rather be like Yang Guo and wait for 16 years or even more for someone I really love. Maybe that's what I'm doing now, waiting for that someone who's always there in my mind to come in reality. Realise that all my strength comes from my mind. What I lack in the real world are all there in my mental world that somewhat, the spiritual fulfilment gives me the energy and strength to go on. Whatever. If so I'm going to remain single all my life, so be it. I've become so passive that I don't feel like doing anything to change the current situation. Haha. =P