Lost in this world called reality.

I'm beginning to start to not think so much for everything coz, I've juz started to give up on so many things, so many views that I've hold on strongly to in the past. Given up coz I've woken up from idealism into reality. My views are too naive. Passion, it's juz a 3 min affair. The strong urge and desire only existed for that short period of time and then it dies out and out comes another passion for something else. Haha, faithfulness, loyality are some of the values dying out.

Why try so hard? The people around me are juz giving me this signal. Why bother? Juz do a fucked up job and there'll be someone else to wipe your ass for you. Even if you bothered and tried hard, in the end, there'll still be bastards around to ruin everything and make your day lousy and make things difficult. Why be so hero and play a good guy? Juz do things that's suppose to be done and who cares about what the result might be? You've played your part and so be it.

I juz hate one thing about me. I talk all this shit and never act them out. I really should juz change into a bastard.