2006. A New Year. A new beginning.

Woke up in the morning only to go to the doc to change my dressing. Was disgusted when he pull out the pus-filled swap in the wound. Bleach... Then he pulled out a yellow suff with the tweezer which he mentioned was an infected tissue. Oh man. I mean, am I rotting from within. Oo Had to endure thru all the "exhilarating feelings" when he proceed to stuff a new swap into that wound within any anesthetic. I was celebrating while he was doing in. Haha. The doc heard about my Thailand trip and he gave a 14day MC straight with a letter to the SAF MO. I was like 0.O and shit, I'm gonna get OOC. Called my PC when I got home and he told me to give him the MC and he'll settle the rest. Hope I won't be packing my bags before march11. =(

Read boon's blog and I say, I must really borrow the book from him. Haha. True, many times, we're juz too bothered by external factors that at that moment, we forget what's our initial aims and goals. Or the influence is too great that we gave up on them. Juz like how much we like a person. When she rejects you, or she feels something for someone else, or she's juz like somewhat out of my league, I'll feel dejected and the thought of giving up is always there to give me "a helping hand". I mean, perhaps giving up is good coz it saves you the pain and open u to more options. Then again, it juz shows how much u feel for that person. Maybe I'm too tired to move on to someone else. Maybe this is juz another excuse. So what things may be one-sided, I guess, like I always like to do, I'll juz wait. Start trying a little by little and wait. Waiting is perhaps juz another excuse. Create this comfort zone and then hum inside there. Haha. Maybe if someone who shows me the care and concern comes along, I'll move on? I don't know? haha. But maybe not. Juz use waiting as a reason to stay single. Concentrate on becoming a chef in the future. Haha. I'll still wait. Waiting...for...you...