Guess Boon's right. The blog is a place to write down some thoughts and there, a stop point, a resting and reflecting junction before we move on with our journey. Maybe I should keep hoping or expect something to happen. Don't hope, juz work hard and do whatever I think is right and the result...doesn't matter, does it? Perhaps it does matters a lot but without the hope, at least won't feel so disappointed if it fails. I guess all I need is a confid and someone in my mind to push myself on. Like I told Russ, maybe I don't really need a gf coz I don't even know whether I can give her anything at all (can't get over past upsetting exp...). Juz need someone to sit by me and someone whom I can relate to. Ha...someone...

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Humm...guess all the studying I had in JC and Sec Sch are going to waste. Forgot lotsa stuffs liao. Really need to catch up on some of the work esp if I wanna do well in uni. Decided to start all over again from the very basics of Physics. Gotta get my foundations right and solid before I proceed on to those"I-don't-even-know-what-the-hell-they-are-all-about" mathematical formulas and theories. My love for the subj is still strong. Wonder if this will keep on when I'm in uni studying it again. Remember all my first loves. The first time in primary 2 when I saw the P3 sci textbk and I was so amazed by all the things inside coz it's nothing like the languages that I've learnt before my P2 life. Remember all the little stuffs like magnets always point to a certain dir and other stuffs never fails to amaze my little brain (at tt time). Haha. As I grow older, realise that out of the 3 mainstream science subj, Physics is the one I love most. Haha. Although I'm never tt smart like boon, nor as hardworking as cck, but I'm juz drawn towards tt big unknown and the answers that this subj provides me about everything around us (well almost). Haha... Also remember the first time in P4 when I first saw MJ on TV during an NBA game. The first time I fell in love with the sport, my old friend. Bball, taught me lotsa things, brought me to lotsa great pals of mine, been together with me in the rain shooting alone, when I was lost and down, when I don't even know if it's rain or tears on my face.

haha...all the fond old memories. The first time. Yet, there's others which I rather choose not to remember coz they'll only tickle tt old wound of mine. Haha... Memories...