Went ot NTU bash. More of a club instead of a pub. Still couldn't understand why people like to go there in the sleazy environment and hop or shake around and call that dancing. Had a little bit over my alcohol limits and I didn't feel high like they said, juz a splitting headache. A lousy feeling where somewhat, slowly losing the control of my body and can seems to be able to go where I want my legs to go. Won't even drink that much next time. Or maybe not even drink. Shall stick to my stand and never go clubbing or pubbing again.

Seems like another troubled soul is waiting. Juz gotta say sorry for last night coz I juz blabber a lot of rubbish despite knowing that it's kinda insensitive. Blame it on the alcohol! =S Perhaps waiting is juz a reason. A little hope that you give yourself thinking that perhaps time can change her perception, perhaps sincerity can move her. If you seriously think so, then continue work hard and not be passive about it. Don't hold back and give it all out. At lesat if that fails, then you can give yourself no reason to wait further more and move on. Still don't understand why inside me there's a strong desire to find a partner? Is it juz some primitive instinct left down generations from our anscestral apes that we need to carry on the life cycle? Why do you feel happier or more peaceful or even complete with that person around? Still searching for some answers. Musics, medias always promotes about how great BGR is, how important is love. Perhaps that's another reason why since young we've been psycho-ed. Perhaps it's juz an act from failure like me. Haha. Finding other means to replicate the feeling good part without a gf. Finding other ways to make my life complete. Juz like bball comp recently, it kinda refreshed my old flame. If I try hard enough, stay focus and give in all I've got, I know that winning is within my reach. There's no need for another uncertainity like BGR, having to consider the decision of the other person. It's juz whether my skills are more refined and my physical is more honed. Saving up enough money to get a golden. Perhaps a dog is the closest subsitute to a gf. Although there're many things that cannot be reciprocated, at least a dog is a loyal companion. Some many things that we can learn from a dog. =)