Been 1 week ++ in work and somewhat still feel very lost. Depression setting in. I need a clearer picture of what happening, what I can expect and what I can hope to achieve.

LSA approved, waiting for medical checkup and interview. Suddenly wondering whether I should really sign on considering the fact of the down in my army life lately. Sign on I'll most probably get posted out. Don't know. Tired of lotsa things. Wished that...never mind. Hate relying on others coz that makes me feel helpless when there's no one around.

If only...