Since a week I've commissioned? Juz finished comms ball last night. Humm...time seems to pass by fast. New unit, new environment, new job. Guess won't be writing much here coz shld be no time lah. Heard that at my new unit, officers almost get their weekends burnt frequently, work till 3-4am in the morning and have no time to apply for leave. Haha, song lah.

Wrote something to someone. Got a reply. Heartening but yet... Realised that there's really a lot alot of thing not within our control, not within our short hands can reach. It's not a matter of how hard you try also or how much effort you put in but also a lot of combination of other stuffs. Starting to learn to not take it so hard if things don't come my way. Idealistic thoughts, don't ever give up on them. That's what she wrote back. Humm...somewhat feel tired of having idealistic thoughts. Especially everything when I naively thought things will turn out this way, reality has to wack me in the head and says "WAKE UP!" Yup, in a way I should. Let go of those areas where my naive thoughts won't work and continue holding on to those that'll keep me happy and going. HAha.

Humm...still feeling very sian. Lost sight of all directions and purpose suddenly. Seems to be walking around aimlessly. Maybe, I need somemore time to locate them again. Lost.