Went for a run and some exercises juz now coz suddenly got informed that I'll be taking IPPT in 2 days' time. Juz try to see where I stand and yup, think I've missed the gold timing by a bit. =S Suddenly tot of the words from LTA Jitson,

"You're not excused from anything even if you wear the black bar. If it means that you've to run at 11pm after your work juz to maintain ur fitness, you jolly well do it. You're obligied to have that self-discipline since u're wearing the rank."

Humm...went back to OCS juz now. Around 1400. Saw the new cadets coming in. Saw the good old instructors, especially LTA Terrance. The good old feeling, the feeling of home. Feel like saying "I'm back". Sounds dumb but that's what I feel. Life after commissioning is...aimless? Feelin like a lost sheep waiting for non other than ORD. Don't know what's going to happen next, have to worry for this and that, responsibilities and stuffs. Miss the days when I juz have to wake up in the morning wishing for the night to come. Haha. Simple wish but fruitful life. All the time spent with my platoon was all quality time, whether it's good or bad. I miss them. Don't know, but time can't turn back. Like they said, becareful of what u wish for coz they might come true. Somewhat, I wish that I didn't hope that commissioning will come tt soon.

Feels stupid, but I went to tt some place to see tt somebody again, or rather take a peak. Glad that she's there and I walked damn close to her. Yey, she looked at me! Hahah. Cool. Can't believe that I can get so happy over such silly things. Somewhat, a voice, tt long hidden voice is telling me to ask for her name and no. Hah, go for it, it said. I don't know, should I? Maybe I'll do something...stupid? Lol... Don't know...read boon's blog and yup.. Old friends somewhat eventually will get bored of each other, somewhat doing the same thing all over again and again makes life dull. What about ur lifelong partner? Eventually years and years of being together, waking up each morning doing the same things, will we eventually get bored of each other? I don't know. Haha...especially I'll like DULL.. =S Aiya, don't know lah, dun think so much. See how loh.

A group of old boys, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old secondary school principal. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.Offering his guests coffee, the principal went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain-looking and some expensive and exquisite, telling them to help themselves to hot coffee. When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the principal said: "If you noticed, all the nice-looking, expensive cups were taken up,leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups.""Now, if Life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change." "Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."

Haven't really been updating much lately. Maybe, juz don't really feel like writin tt much for the past few days. Haha. Lotsa things happened, good, bad, whatever. Humm, been posted out from MIB coz someone of higher value than me is needed by the battalion and so like pawns on the chess set, I'm shifted around. Well, luckily posted into SMI which is still in the same camp and so, I don't have to make any major adjustments. Humm...guess this is the real world eh? Only when you've of value to someone, when you can be utilised then you're of any worth. If not, then you'll juz be thrown around like a puppet. Maybe it's good too. Will be training NSmen from now on, yup. Guess the challenge now is my interpersonal skills, coz gott find ways to communicate with them to get them to get things done. Haha. They're sure harder to handle than any hokkien-bengs in the army. =P A challenge, and in the end, I'll up my comms skills at the end of NS. =)

Feeling a bit ermm...don't know. Haha. Saw this girl at this place attending this shop. Ever since then find myself frequenting this place, maybe juz delibrately passing by this place juz to catch a glimpse of her? =P Felt kinda disappointed when I didn't see her around for the past few days. A bit boliao eh? Haha. Nvm, will keep on conducting stand off recee to have survillence on HVT (aka high value target). Haha. =D

Humm...started getting more accessories like cool matching blue half gloves and a 3L water bag to add on to my biking hobby. Haha. Now I only lack a cool blue helmet (the uncle at the bike shop dun have the right size for my oversized head...) and maybe a light blue bottle. Haha. Cool sia, first stop - beginner biking @ Bukit Timah Hill! Haha. Cool. Planning to go there on a off day and bike up tt hill and eat lunch there~! Well, juz take it as part of my AHM training for the comin 21km run... =S Can't wait to get off and cycle around. =D

Humm...things around are really changing all the time. Change...no one, nothing stops for anyone, anything. Everything is moving, changing and evolving. Perhaps except me, still there at the same spot, wishing...

Got a bunkmate always like talking over the phone and sayin (loudly) "We should find JH a GF". -.- C'mon man, I don't need a girl. I'm not you, I don't feel so low morale or negative for not spending a sec with a girl.

What's the "get-a-gf/bf" trend about eh? It's not like others have a gf I must have one too juz like not everyone f around I must go f around too. Same logic. I admit I haven't had the smoothest journey like some others (my bunkmate) who hit off from the first try. After all the crap, I juz feel that I don't wanna invest much or anything emotionally into a hormonal disorder symptom call love. Sometimes, why wanna waste money, effort, time and energy on someone who can apprecitate them but will eventually take them for granted and will ask for more (pepsi!)? Might as well spend all these and invest in yourselves and some others with your family and friends. Lol.

Simply love riding on my bike. Cycling from places to places, enjoying the breeze and scenery. Kinda replace the stroll that I used to take at night. Humm...need more practices coz still not fam with the gears. Heh, gotta get leave and go mountain biking at timah and Ubin when I've got the time. Cool. =D