Been wondering, why do conflict arise? Between friends who've know each other for so long? Could it be coz that all along the years, we've juz known each other at the superficial level that we never really bothered to get deeply connected with each other? Or after years of friendship we began to take each other for granted, becoming insensitive to each others needs and wants? Somewhere, somehow the communication part broke down and the anger and frustration sets in, making things worse. Or we juz hold on to tt thing called PRIDE and refuse to admit that we're all in the wrong, making insensitive comments like "cannot be bothered" or "don't care" that only hurt the hard to build yet fragile relationship. I don't know, I'm still learning. Living for 20 years ain't a lot and ain't tt little, but surely not enough yet to know a lot of things. I guess everyone's right and everyone's wrong at the same time. Have to admit that everyone's unique and have different views on things but maybe sometimes we juz have to take a step back and view things on a more neutral perspective instead of taking every comment too personally? Perhaps, but it's still my own opinion. Still thinking, being at home for so many days really gives me lotsa time to think about a lot of things....maybe a bit too much.

Realise that there's so many things that I've not let go, forget. Time never really helps. How I wish some things never began, so I don't have to still linger over the end. I know what I should do but somewhat, I'm not doing it. Haha...irony. Time seems to have been a standstill for me for so long, too long. Maybe I'll let go once I go uni? Haha...maybe. Juz know that if I don't let go, I'll never move on. Still trying to find that something that's still holding me back.