Demote me and call me SARGE or "come here PTE" will do.

Sometimes feel that I'm juz doing a job where you don't really need a 2LT to do. Kinda frustrating to come back on 2 off days juz to do something stupid. Something I learnt, shouldn't always be that keen to help. After once or twice, you'll be their targets of "volunteer". Another thing I hate is when I say a firm "NO" and people around juz keeps buzzing around my ears - "Go lah...y don't go?" "Aiya, c'mon loh.." and some juz "What? See you there." My ass. I don't have to do what you want me to do. I'm irritating but I know my limits. When I get decide to try my luck and get boon to go clubbing, asking once is enough coz I know if he doesn't want there's no use in talking further. Why must you all juz wanna piss me off and keep clinging on to me like some pest whole day making me feel so f-up? Don't make me show you my not-so-friendly side. Don't test the limits, coz you don't have what it take to face the aftermath.

F it. No point feeling f up. Glad I put her picture as desktop background. Always feel better seeing that sweet smile. =) Discovering another aspect of love. Actually not, it's always that part that I've been looking for. The mental and spiritual part of love. When you desire for a person, you're looking for the physical part of love, or more of the natural instinct that's been going on for zeons of years. I juz needed someone to occupy my mind, juz don't let my mind fail me in tough times. Simple things like the 15km run, I like to imagine that 'she' is running beside me so that I don't give up halfway or out in the jungle fighting and knowing that it's all worth it for the safety and security of that person. Maybe having too much uncertainty and doubts in the reality of love are some things that I've tasted and gotten tired of. Can say I'm hum but I think that I've grown up more? Don't really wanna jump into anything or like in the past, give everything that I've got and leave no road to retreat coz I naively thought there's no need. Realise that I really prefer to juz be a good friend to the female counterparts. Haha, don't wanna boast but I do still provide valuable insights and advices to problems of the heart. hAhaha. Sometimes, it's better to help from the outside than to jump in and get involved. Well, that is if you know what that sentence means. =) Feel free to call me up for coffee to have a small talk. No fees needed. I'm learning to listen too. Mutual benefits. =)