Gonna be bz for the rest of this year. 1 officer from scouts side is gonna ORD soon and so, I'll take over his team till the new officer comes in. The rest of the work year schedule is out and yup, having lots of times where I have to attend to 2 different in camps at 2 different places in the same time frame. Humm...will my pay double also? Hope so but continue dreaming loh. Haha...maybe I'm juz too dispensible that I get kicked around like a soccer ball? Lol. Don't care liao...juz wait for 070207.

Played bball with some of my colleagues juz now. Kinda frustrating when I lost 2 games and won 1 of the 1 v 2 matches. My offensive skills sux big time. Juz seems like when I don't get close to the low post my scoring ability drop to the minimum. My set shot, jump shot all mid to long range shots are too inconsistant. Even when I penetrate, the lay-ups are missing like f. I juz need to up the offensive side. Need more practice. Starting from tml.

Sometimes doesn't feel right for the past week. Juz feeling a bit...funny. Sometimes wrong in me but I don't know what. When I do work, juz feel damn sian (a different kind of the normal sian) even though I'll still complete it. During bball, frustrated that even with the desire to win, my body doesn't cooperate (physically and skill wise) with me. I need a source of happiness I guess. Something that I don't have to work for result, struggle for success as end state, do for the sake of pleasing others. Something that I know that I, JH, Mr KUANG, ME feels happy doing. Sigh. Missed those carefree life. My wings are tied.