Cut some slack and let loose.

No wonder they say determination and perserverence makes winners. It's hard to overcome that mental hurdle to wake up earlier, change gear and go practice and workout for hours. Feel that I shouldn't rely on others to improve coz everyone's in their comfort zone of playing and no one will wanna change to get me to improve for winning is more important, right?

I'm just a human. I'm only 178cm, 70kg. I just jumped a bit higher and play a bit harder. My opponents always seemed to be a size bigger, a head taller but still I have to play them head on. Sometimes just feel that people don't know how tiring to match up against these giants and all the feedback I got was the low post ain't performing, the rebounds ain't enough, blah blah blah. Gotten past the stage of flaring up, giving that f look for I know that's all I can do. Hate the feeling when others says I ain't trying hard enough and inside I'm beating myself up more. Gotten past the stage of flaring up, giving that f look for I know that's all I can do. I could play like a giant against guys shorter than me in the post but no glory in that.

Anger is a powerful tool. Angry at my own inabilities, my own weak physical state, my injuries, my own determination. Guess that I'll take a break for competitive team bball for a while to cool myself off before I start hating myself. Take it that I'll rest my sprain ankle, wrist and thumb. Think about stuffs a bit more. Get better.