Sports Camp Day 1

Hmmm...perhaps the initial mood and the reason to attend the camp is juz not there. My OG, juz say that some of the guys are juz too garang and ra-ra and so, I juz let them be the ones to go hyper and stuffs while I take a step back. Guess they're juz trying to impress some of the not bad looking girls in my OG too. Already was feeling quite neutral-to-sian mode during the camp but kinda get the spirits up a bit when trying out the different water games. Then, it's the tele-matches at night that blew it. Tried to be a bit garang and volunteered for a game where it's like 3 aside volleyball but instead, a paper was used and had to be blown over to the opponent side. Was teamed with one of the super garang guy and that's it man. I really don't know to praise him for the enthusiasm or to hate him for his obliviousness to the surrounding. Basically, he's like on a one man show jumping near the net and blowing practical every attempt of the opponent for trying to get the tissue on our side. So, it just happened that the tissue flew to my side and I opened my mouth and about to blow, he jumped from below and headered my lower jaw. The next time I knew, I spat out bits and pieces of parts of my front teeth that's chipped off. FARK. Can juz feel that the balance of my mood was tipped to the extreme side of "SIAN-NESS". Decided to juz skip today's sea activities and go visit the dentist. Don't even know how much it'll cost to fix my teeth. Crap. Talk about a combination of Suay and Sian. Double S Combo.

Looking on the positive side, at least the whole teeth didn't come out or splitted or cracked to beyond repair state. Or maybe it's worth the small misfortune to cover up for a bigger one like something more serious. Crap. Juz feel like booting out of camp. =(
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Hmm... Don't know. Think I lost the ability to "self-high". Perhaps only able to show this side of me to the people I know better but as for those whom I juz met, think I seemed "dao" or anti-social. Maybe it's the nature of my job in the army that moulded my char now. Juz like tt loh. It's not like I can't do things on my own. Maybe it's the people around me that triggers of my "garang-ness". Sian. Argg...someone hype my up!