Ever since school starts the same feeling comes back. Went for Soci Lec today I think I'm starting to fall under the social deviant group. Maybe not.

It's not like there's nothing to do in life. Sometimes juz feel that there's something lacking in my life. Something strong enough to drive me through life.

Never really has something strong that I can believe in. Those beliefs, values and views that I held strongly to in the past have all been overruled by the test of the time. Wrong. Wrong Wrong. So what the hell is the this society turning to? I don't understand. That's why I took SC1101E - Making Sense of Society.

Hmm..planning to take the guitar course after CNY with Jun but maybe I might start earlier. Firstly, my life is seriously on a downside and I think that music will be of some positive help. Secondly, Jun is still indecisive about learning the drums or the E. guitar which I think he might juz gay on me when the time comes to register for the lesson. I juz need something to look forward to now, no matter how short term it might be.

Sluggish mind now. Can't even believe that I felt sick of playing computer games which I though would give me some energy to get going. Fuck. I need a jab of adrenaline into my veins.