向命运低头?

Lately having this super sian feeling, resultin in the zero motivation that I'm having. Suddenly wondering, am I starting to give in to fate? Realising maybe I have not much affinity for studying, or is it really juz that I'm not cut for reading Physics. Sometimes not doing well seriously have a slow poisoning effect in me. Not that I realise it immediately but it's juz slowly eating my confidence away that when I knew what was happening, everything juz seemed too late.

Seriously wondering if one can survive on interests and passions in Singapore. A place where failing seems not to be an option. A place where the elites trive.

Sometimes juz wondering why. Not like I never study nor work hard for something but it juz seems like I'm always the one getting the crap scores. Like I said too boon, getting sian lately, coz it juz seems like every aspect of my life is a failure that makes me really wonder wtf am I doing. Alright. What higher being out there or whatever fate there is, juz give me all your best shot.

I'm survive. I'll show you.