What's the common thing about my past relationship and the tuition I'm giving now apart that both of them are call V?

Lots of time and effort invested = some crappy results

I almost flared at my student for her crappy attitude today but I realise that it's not anger that I'm feeling, but juz tonnes of disappointment. Disappointed at her couldn't-be-bothered attitude and mostly disapponted at myself. Disappointed that I've failed as a teacher as a whole.

The whole series of disappointment juz triggers me to think of V.

How angry I felt when I found out she was with someone else but come to realise that I'm juz disappointed in her, and again, mostly disappointed in myself for it must be that I ain't worthy enough, that's why she chose someone else.

Disappointments. Life juz seems to be full of disappointments for me in the recent years. Come to realise that maybe I ain't that proficient at human relations. Feel for all the wrong people. Talk of insensitive craps. No one actually listens to what I have to say.

Feel totally anti-social in uni. Feeling introvert. Actually I really wanna go socialise with the peeps in my fac but somewhat, juz didn't know where to start. Forgot what it's like in the past to be a social animal. All I wanted is to avoid place where I'll meet people that I know and wonder about places where there's not many people. It's juz like where there's less human interaction, less things will possibly go wrong.

I juz need something good in my life to happen. It's time to start appreciating the little things around. The breeze, the warm sunshine, the big Nature I've taken for granted.