Solitude or selfishness?

Though I would occasionally longed to be in a relationship with someone, the freedom I'm having now is still too much a trade off for it. Maybe coz I know if I ever get a gf, I'll spend so much energy and time (and money) on her that I'll practically leave the bare minimum for myself, which is gonna tire me out. So, I guess I'll still be selfish and value my freedom more.

Call me ungentlemanly or assh*** but I still don't feel too comfortable hanging around females. (with exception of a few) Jh's internal circuitry will go hay-wire and he'll act weirdly when hanging around females for prolong time. It's like getting cancerous cells with prolong exposure to radiation. Ha. Watever.

Alright. Seems like I'm in for the year end SEP. =/