February the 13th seems to be a black mark in my life. 5 yrs ago on the same day I broke up with someone whom I devoted my whole heart into. Today, once again, I will surrender. Surrender because I don't know what I could do nor should do anymore, coz everything seems to backfire. Fate. If everything if planned out as a part of destiny, then juz leave everything to fate. I'll keep my heart away for a while. Pack up the messy emotions and leave them in one corner. If there is a conservation law for emotions, then it should tend to move back towards equilibrium state given enough relaxation time.

Sorry, I didn't know that being nicer to you is unknowingly giving you pressure. I'll juz treat you as a normal friend from now on.