Hmm...lately juz wake up feeling sapped of energy, lack of tt zest, deprived of motivation. Everyday juz seems to be a little cycle waiting for me to go through it, nothing to look forward to.

Wait, isn't that the life that has been going on for a long time?

If only results ain't that important. If only it's how hard I've tried, or the process that matters.

Sometimes it's the little little failures that keeps accumulating up that makes life starts to feel unbearable. When people starts to expect this and that. When I start to expect more from myself.

When it seems harder and harder to find a reason to smile every now and then, let alone laugh. The last time I really felt appreciated was the little kitty which I fed at the void deck. Ha. The way it's eyes stared intensely into mine when it meows after the meal. How it circle my legs and hops around. Maybe it's juz me but yup, at least it made me happy for that day.

Tml I shall juz watch the little works of nature - the rustling of the leaves, the chirping of sparrows, the moving clouds, the gentle breeze... Maybe I'm trying to hard to fill up that emptiness in my heart that I end up making an even bigger space.

Shall go sleep early. At least I hope "everything will be better after a good night's sleep" still holds. =/