Decided to adopt boon's studying philosophy, play super hard and then feel satisfied (fj-ed) and go study to the core. So I decided to let myself loose this weekend and not think about sch work. After which, it's hitting the books till exams are over.

And on Fri the 13th, finished the only lecture for the day, went home before venturing out to Taka Kino there to browse books. Bought another 2 books to add to be collection and I'm seriously overspending here. Ha. Juz felt like reading coz there are times when reading brings me to place, experiences and feelings I don't get to go through now, yet. Broadens my horizon, open up my mind and makes me a slightly better person?

And Sunday feel like going to cycle at ECP. Maybe in the morning ba. Wondering if anyone's interested but I seriously doubt so. Either too busy or mugging. Lol. Never mind, it's good to spend time alone. Wonder where else I can go to explore in Singapore... =/

Feeling kinda crappy coz I said something I shouldn't last last night and feeling a bit useless for not being able to be of any help when I see a friend feeling really upset. Although I really wish that I'll be around her at that moment, I guess that my presence doesn't really help much also. Lotsa question inside my head too. Maybe I'm really not ready for anything yet. Maybe the wound in my heart never really healed itself, I've juz ignored it for the couple of years and it didn't feel much coz I've grown numbed to it. Constantly wanting to reach out and hold on to her, perhaps hoping that she can make it better and whole again. What a selfish thought. Don't know, but I guess it's time to come to a realisation that it's still hurting from years ago and now, I'll close my heart and slowly heal it ba. Till the day that it's whole and I can love with no strings attached, then perhaps she might accept that more complete me ba.

And now the puppy within will go hunt for his favourite stick that he has buried somewhere. He'll find it, somehow.