Watched Marley and Me.

Another show that I'm glad I watched alone. Touched. Moved. Whatever you called it. I admit I almost teared. Today wasn't great. Felt like sht after the 2 tests. Don't know why I'm studying for anyway, for I'm sure that it didn't help much during the tests. Sense of worthlessness ba, you could call it.

Watched the show and wondered, how great it would be if I have a big dog around.

A dog doesn't care whether you're rich or poor, what colour is your skin, juz a waterlog stick will do. Give it your heart and it will give you its heart.

Words at the ending of the show. How true, makes one marvel at the capacity the dog's ability to love, as if it's borned to shower its master with love. How it makes you feel like you're the most special person that it has ever seen. Secretly wished that someone would do something outta his/her way juz for me, makes me feel important. Ha. Even if it's something small, makes me feel special. Wishing.

Sometimes juz wished someone would hold me close, juz like now. If a doggie is here, I would give it a big hug. Tell it so many things that's bothering me, without fearing that it'll laugh at me. Screwed up emotions now. Sit beside me, juz being there. Maybe it's that close human touch that I've been missing daily nowadays. Detached from society. Perhaps I should have chosen a course what my other friends are doing, then I won't be so lonely ba. Or just blame myself at how lousy I'm at integrating into the new environment. Never mind, one more year? Grad, go work, save up, get a house, get a car and get a dog.

Everything will be better after a good night's sleep.