Happy April Fools Day, and I juz happened to be the biggest fool.

It's funny how I actually been in this big joke that I've planned for myself all along and made a fool of myself. Flawless plot, when it started with an alright scene. I didn't even suspect anything from the start. How funny that last night while I was trying to sleep, millions of thoughts, flashbacks, sounds, etc, flooded my mind in a short instance before I got knock out into lala land.

Maybe Fate is trying to show me the other path to take, planting obstacles to make me fall, eat dirt in this road I'm taking to tell me to take the other way. And she's the last piece on the chessboard for the final checkmate. And strangely, I thought I would feel something break but nothing. Juz a mixture of anger and disappointment at my own foolishness and for believing in those "Ideals". Gut feelings, instincts, all are juz bulllshit. Hello dude, you're not living in Jin Yong's Novels.

Resolve. This time I'm keeping it away for good.

I'll let the other Jh run my life for a while.